Suffering

The will to aquire strength lacking the ability to persevere evades an aching  heart that beats irratically within oneself,

a mind so disturbed  causing irrational depression, paranoia beyond any radical reasoning although it is true to be a victim without any convincing gain, a continual burden, repetitiveness in pain 

Perceptional hatred of an unjust society creating ruptured social skills requiring one to feel as if to kill, however turning in on oneself, a loathing of a pessimistic kind, raging internal destruction

a death within ones mind

depreciative national pride for the foolishly deceived, baying angrily at the suffering of unjustly treated 

if heaven will, dying would serve thee well

Forgiven for a mortal sin released from hell.